I have the most amazing husband in all of creation! He surprises me everyday with how amazing he is. He is also the best dad there ever was or ever will be. I am so blessed to have him as my very best friend, husband and teacher. I am excited for each and every day that I get to be with him.

I have the very best kids ever. I am so proud of them and their accomplishments. Kyli is doing an amazing job in school and in dance. She has grown as a dancer and amazes me with her abilities. Abbey is a wonderful little dancer, she tried out for company this year and got on a company with girls that have been in dance since they were really little, she has only been dancing for a year and a half. Riley is wonderful at everything he does, he is in baseball right now and is rocking it, he will be golfing with his dad this summer and then will be doing LaCross this fall and basketball this winter.

My life is so very blessed!

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Prov. 4:23).

I just realized that everything is a choice. Whether we are happy, sad, hurt, angry, how we are in relationships.

All relationships require work and marriages require more work than other relationships. If you want to have happiness in a marriage, it requires you to choose to love the way Heavenly Father commanded us to love.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres." (1 Cor. 13:4–7,) The first two commandments is to Love; Love God and Love thy neighbor as thy self.  Love is everything. Love never ends.

Why do marriages end in divorce? Some would say for many reasons and they would be right, if they were looking at the surface. I believe there really is only one reason marriages fail and that is because they choose too.

To love the way we are commanded by God to love, takes an everyday commitment of 100%. It is a choice we make everyday, to love our spouse the way God intended, whether they choose the same or not. If both spouses make the commitment and choose to love each other the way God intended, then the marriage is unbreakable and both feel happy, loved and safe.

Before we can love another, we must love ourselves. I just learned that fact. When I made the choice to love me, my wall finally fell and all the brokenness went away. Everyday, I still have to make the choice to love me and some days it is hard, but I do it. I choose to practice forgiveness and to Love the way God intended for us to Love. Will it be hard and a lot of work? Yes, but I believe that it will be worth it in the end and Love really can cure all things!

In the not so distant past, I was critical, judgemental and was trying to live in logic and what I got from that was unhappiness, physical and mental issues (anxiety) and a deep darkness, from not being my true self.

Through prayer, blessings, going to the temple and counseling, my defensive wall came down and now I am able to see clearly, hear clearly, the anxiety is gone and my heart is open. I am now taking old wounds and hurts to Heavenly Father to be healed. I have learned through counseling that Heavenly Father brings forth people to touch old wounds to bring forth painful feelings, so I can take them to Heavenly Father to be healed. Until now, all of my wounds have been opened by my husband and gratefully those instances have turned out for the best and we have come a long way in healing and growing.

Recently, a situation with someone, who I have built a huge defensive wall, because of feeling criticized, judged and disliked has brought forth painful feelings and has brought back my wall of distrust. I have known this person for over a decade and learned very quickly to be on guard and hide behind my wall, so as to not be devastated by their comments and hurtful observations. I would always try and make excuses for their lack of compassion and the hurtful things that were said by telling myself that they didn't realize how they came across. I truly felt that under all the criticism, they were really good and maybe even kind but right this minute, I wonder!

My husband shared something with me that didn't feel right and made me feel bad, so I went to the source and asked for clarification and at that time shared my feelings and some fears, something I would have never done with this person in the past, because of my hurt feelings. I was shocked to my core, when I was met with absolute coldness, my question was answered with one short sentence and nothing else. I needed some clarification and asked for it and shared a little more, thinking that I was just being sensitive but was met with no compassion or empathy for my feelings and even more coldness, at least everything was clarified and now I don't feel bad towards my husband but now I don't really want to be around this person because of how shocked and hurt I am. I normally would talk too and share my feelings with the one who hurt me but because of how devastated I am, I don't have the heart for another annihilation, so I will pray and ask for help in forgiving and getting peace in my heart, so that I can be around this person without wanting to cry. I know that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing but learning and growing and experiencing forgiveness is hard and very painful, I pray that I can over come things in a timely manner.